As the old cliché avowed “life is like a roller coaster ride”. It has tons of peaks, and tons of valleys. It has ups and downs, and highs and lows. It has full of surprises, and full of mysteries. And with life, you can experience everything ranging from your highest highs to your lowest lows.

I’ve been happy for years now. I’ve been at peaks, I felt very high, and I am at the top. But tonight, it's different, it's pay-back time, and it's official. My 22 months of blissful happiness is gone. I am still in the process of adjusting to the drastic change that is currently eating me up, and now, I am experiencing the other facet of life – the dark side of it.

I’ve been drenching myself with tears. Every song on the radio reminds me of something. Every message on my mobile phone speaks something. And every photograph on my wall depicts something. These are things or experiences that I wish I could go back to. But this is life, no matter how hard you try, no matter how many ergs of energy you need to exert, or no matter how many numbers of memories you need to remember. Still, it is in the past, and no one can not make your wrong decisions, right. All you can do now is just to look forward, leaving all the nastiest and sweetest reminiscences to the past. Learn to accept, and learn to let go. All good and undesirable things are bound to come to an end, the only difference is time – some ends soon, while some ends a bit later than the usual.

The 22 months was an experience. I learned new things, and I imparted knowledge. I gave, and I received. I conversed, and I listened. I fought, and I was healed. I loved, and I was loved.

I am wishing this roller coaster ride will end, and still hoping that someone can be with me throughout this ride. Someone who can scream, laugh, cry, or even hug me and hold my hands whenever i feel fear or encounter perils on my journey to life...